This City

I saw a show last night. It was frenetic and crazy and wonderful and intense. I was in love with my girlfriend and the bands that played and the crowd around me. I was in love.

I sat down today and put the songs on and relived those moments – the speeches he gave, the way she belted the songs out. I remembered everything vividly at first, but as the day went on, it began to fade. I could feel the experience slipping away from me.

I wish I could relive those moments for the rest of my life,  like a VCR in my head that I could just rewind every three hours. I want to experience last night again. I want to fall in love again. I want to taste things for the first time again, and I want to be with my friends again. I want to remember everything.

I’m sitting here, looking out my window. The sun is rising, and I want to remember this. I need to remember this. I need to remember all of this, every last bit of it, forever.

But I won’t.